Nadine

Last night…. i was starving.
At the first signs of hunger i laid in bed and decided to just go to sleep and forget about it… until patrick came in to give me a kiss- SMELLING OF GARLIC AND SPAGHETTI SAUCE.. i was like a ravished animal, jumped outta bed on a hunt lol… ate 3 celery sticks… wasn’t enough.. so i took just ONE small bite of his spaghetti. 
I don’t think it was a horrible thing, the rules say that during your first 3 days you can eat an extra medimeal if your hungry.. I figured the one bite amounted to 1/2 a packet of food.

Today…
I did fine all afternoon. Now I’m at work… starving. Headache. Moody.
It says it will only be the first 3-5 days that i’ll feel this way.

GIVE ME STRENGTH BECAUSE I’M SO HUNGRYYYY

I haven’t ate my lean & green yet.. it’s probably the culprit of my all my problems. i didn’t have time this morning to make it so I was planning on just eating it tonight when I got home… here’s my food for the day:

-Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal
-Peanut Butter Bar
-Strawberry shake
-Chicken Noodle soup
-Garlic Parmesean Cheese balls
-Lean/Green: 5 oz. Chicken & veggies

I bought a new weight scale, but I wanted to weigh in in the morning after my first potty break. I weighed in at 229.4 this afternoon…I’ll get the right weight for regularly weigh-ins tomorrow!

Wish me strength. i’m starving.

I’m beginning the Medifast plan. They came in the mail last Wednesday, but I went to WASU for the weekend and knew I wouldn’t be able to follow anything!
Take Shape for Life is what I went through. I’ve got a “health coach” named Jeremy. He’s pretty cool and he’s lost 50 lbs. using Medifast so far.

I haven’t weighed myself today because I don’t have a working scale anymore. But I’ll do the whole thing tomorrow- weight & measurements. I wanted to document my first month on it so I can look back at how I was feeling everyday and compare to what I’m feeling when I’m done with the first 4 weeks.

So…. today I dragged Pat out of bed to go play tennis with me and go for a hike. It was nice to be together QUIETLY because we’ve been fighting so much lately. He wasn’t happy that I went to WASU for the weekend and he’s been picking fights everyday for a week before I left and every moment since I came back yesterday. It’s senseless arguments… he doesn’t trust me blah blah blah… I didn’t do anything except have a good time. No harm done there. I hope he gets over really soon because I don’t know how much more I can take!

On the plus side… i did go play tennis for about 30min. and went for a 45 min. hike.

So.. Medifast– 5 & 1
5 prepackaged meals and 1 “lean/green” meal….
This is what I’ve got on today’s menu

• Dutch chocolate shake
• S’more’s bar
• Maple/Brown cinnamon oatmeal
• Chili
• Vanilla pudding
• Lean/Green = 7 oz. Tilapia & 1 cup of mixed veggies
  cooked with lemon pepper, ms. dash, pepper, 1 tsp. soy sauce, 2 tsp. olive oil, 2 tsp. lemon juice
• and my daily vitamins

I crossed off the food I’ve eaten already.

I’m hungry. Not starving. No headaches. Still have energy. Not moody.

I’ll update if anything changes!

i lost 11 lbs. YAY!!!!

after telling a good friend in security at work that i’m down 11 pounds (he likes to challenge me).. he decided he should tell me something that the boy in security say..
this is it:
when someone passes through the sally port that has a good body, the boys say
“that body, with nadine’s face”

…. sad day in the neighborhood Mr. Rogers.

i’m stolked about my 11 lbs total.. but not for that reason.
I don’t care about what other people think. I do to a point, but not when it comes to them comparing me to others.
Doesn’t feel good.

excuse my french but…..

FUCK YOU! I LOOK GOOD AS I AM, AND I KNOW I’LL LOOK BETTER WHEN I’M SKINNY. I DO IT FOR ME. NOT YOU!

lost 2.5 lbs! yay!
had a little bit of trouble these past couple days, but stayed within my calorie count.
paid off!

Ment to post this sat. But didn’t get posted for some reason

My supervisor caught wind that I’ve been eating healthy last week and has challenged me in a weight loss competition. Sounds fun, but im really intimidated by her and she had already lost more then 70+ lbs. Wish me luck, our first weigh in is on Saturday!

I had my cheat day yesterday and didn’t binge like I typically do. I’ve also downloaded a new app that makes keeping track of my calories a lot easir. I might just have a chance! Whatever helps I can get to keep my motivated in losing my weight, ill take it..bout 4 months left till Pennsylvania.

i threw out all the pizza in my house last week. all the junk got thrown out.

so.. i’m sitting here doing my paper for school when i smell that sweet pizza aroma filling up my house. puzzled because i swore that i had thrown out all the pizza, i go to the kitchen. not only did patrick purchase everything that i had just thrown away, he had served me up 2 pieces of pizza. bOoo… taking the bait, i ate it all.
so total calorie intake today : 2154…

i’ll try again tomorrow.

with no weight loss. no weight gain. ehh.. at least i maintained!
i’m going to pennsylvania in june, gotta drop some weight =)
i’m going to be meeting patrick’s grandparents, & don’t want to come looking like tubby wubby… 25-30 pounds is the goal.  i’ve came to the conclusion that i need to eat healthier, regardless of needing to lose weight.  i saw a nutritionist on last thursday and did my grocery shopping friday & have been able to keep at it so far.
Here is my meal plan for the day:
Breakfast:
1egg2eggwhite scrambled with spinach & mushroom
1 piece of oatnut bread
1tbls of almond butter
1teaspoon of honey
Snack:
pear
Lunch:
aspargus
1c frozen fruit
1 kirkland weightloss shake
snack:
Ms. May Trio bar (TRY THESE, THEY’RE SCRUMPTIOUS!)
dinner:
1c rice
chicken stirfry (used low sodium soysauce & sesame oil)
Desert:
broiled grapefruit w/ agave & cinnamon on top

I need to start exercising again also. It’s just really hard to jump-start it and I find myself making excuses. No totally bogus ones, but ones that i know better than to use. I’ve quit working 2 jobs, down to my one & i started school. I’ve been swamped between the 2 and haven’t found the ooomph to get my butt out of bed a little earlier. we’re moving into a house at the end of the month & am able to pull out my treadmill. i walk my puppy everyday, but i need to start running him. so many things that i NEED to do…. i just have to do it and quit thinking about it =)
if i can prove to myself once and for all that i CAN DO IT i’ll be willing to shell out some $$ to hire Sam back as my personal trainer…. here we go for another round!

YEARS and YEARS I’ve been battling this disease called obesity. It starts WAAYY back to when I was 2 and my cousins refused to call me by my name, instead it was “that girl” or “the sumo wrestler”. Sad isn’t it? I plan to take all the snide remarks and harrassment that I’ve had to face and use it to motivate me to become healthier. I don’t care about the AMOUNT of weight I shed, I want to be able to outrun my younger brother next time he calls me chubby!
My biggest downfall is the motivation to continue with my lifestyle change. Usually, I relapse and chow down a cheeseburger.. then because i become so upset with myself- i go out and eat a bucket of ice cream! I know that just because I ate freely one day, I shouldn’t stop all together… But without any support, it’s hard to find it inside myself to run that extra 30 min. to burn it off. Hopefully, I put this “buddyslim” to some use.. only time will tell.
Today, is my first day…  let’s see how it goes!